A sour mood.
I've stayed quiet this political season. There didn't seem to be any use for another annoying political voice, so I kept my mouth shut.
I hid two people on Facebook for political posts -- 1 democrat and 1 republican, both because their discourse was offensive.
Today a friend came over and we talked politics. For him, his reasoning was so sound that it was inarguable; for me, his reasoning was so flawed that arguing against it felt like trying to hold water, we had no base on which to stand. We talked politics for three hours and I was emotionally exhausted and mad by the end. (At one point I screamed "That is crazy! That is fascism!" Losing my cool lost any credibility I had. I'm not a good debater. I just get flustered and pissed.)
Charles had fun. I didn't.
Also, I don't like discussing education when I am an educator sitting in the room and no one asks me one question about what needs to change. I'll tell you right now that turning education into a capitalist model is a load of crap.
And I'm sour because I'm realizing that I will have to fight to see my daughter--schedule Sundays months in advance, fight for holidays, lay on the guilt, bribe, say I have cancer, I'll do anything; I just want to see my daughter.
On a cheery note, we went to the Red Iguana with Natalie and Jimmy and laughed and laughed late into the night and remembered why we were always best friends. We left rosy with joy--I love how kind Natalie is, and how Jimmy is 40 and still goes by Jimmy and calls people "dude".
Today I let Tyler, one of my primary children, play in my car for 40 minutes. It was so fun -- Oh the minds of autistic children! the way their eyes twinkle at a windshield wiper, a turn of the key, the hazard lights. He is moving away and I am very sorry to see him go.
Mira made Mexican hot chocolate and Max made pumpkin-chocolate chip squares. Delicious.
Another good note. Sam Gordon is also one of my primary children and I am so proud of her football stardom.
Goodnight.
More cheer tomorrow.
2 comments:
Erica. I'll not talk politics with you any day.
I kept quiet this election period. The whole world is going nuts with tight-held ideologies. I don't want to be one of them.
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