On my mind #1. I have been serving in the Stake Young Women's for two and a half years. This morning I went to Stake Conference and the Stake was split in such a way that I am released. I feel an enormous burden lifted. I loved the time that I was able to serve, but I mainly feel relieved and am glad it is over.
On my mind #2. I wrote a seriously sucky story for tomorrow's workshop, it started out good, but then I had no idea where I was going with the story. I started writing it too late to go back and start over. I feel a bit embarrassed. I better start my next story soon. I'll be needing some redemption. Redemption pie.
On my mind #3. I was really uplifted and inspired by one of the speakers at stake conference. He was one of the regional leaders. I liked him because he said his wife is a lawyer and because he fed is 14 month old ice-cream and Dr. Pepper when his wife was in the hospital with cancer. When I left, I felt that I was okay. I felt that there is a place for me in the church and I wanted to be a better person.
On my mind #4. My dear friend who lives around the corner from me is feeling depraved, her daughter (who I love and adore) just came out on her blog. I am happy for Chelsea, I think that we are on earth to become our greatest selves, and if that means your gay, that means your gay. I'm sure Chelsea has been carrying a heavy load. It is time for her to soar. I'm excited to watch. I also know that a daughter's coming-out is hard on a mom. It is so easy for the mom to think that she has failed in some way. It's hard for the mom to face the ward members who are quick to think mom has failed. It is hard to watch all the things we dream for our daughters go by the wayside---the wedding dress, the babies, the way we imagined being a grandmother. I hope that I can be a good friend, and supportive to my having-a-hard-time friend.
On my mind #5. How on earth am I going to get everything done? Is it humanly possible? I need to write a personal statement, study for the GRE subject test, meet with a list of professors, revise a weighty critical paper, grade stacks of papers, read tons of short stories, be brilliant and all the while keep the house in order, bathe the kids, help them with homework, keep them reading, drive them to their swim lessons, cook meals, be a kind a loving mother, be a kind and loving wife and all the while stay sane. What the hell am I thinking?
On my mind #6. All sorts of randomness...how to get the guy across the street to swim with me (he won state in high school and doesn't swim anymore!)....chickens....the state of our country...Sara Palin....nutrition...my arms hurt...how to get my friend Masaki a date...what happens when I leave college...shouldn't I clean my sheets...why am I 32 and still get zits...what should I do for Harrison's birthday...butterfly, breast, back, freestyle...how come I can't say the word shit in my short stories this semester...I hope Dan finds a job...when am I going to get a nap
8 comments:
I just found your blog. Love it! Thanks for being a good friend to my mom. She appreciates you AND your friendship. The whole thing is weird and different and strange, but it's good. It's good that Chel is Chel, no longer hiding behind what everyone thought was Chel. It's a relief for us all, I guess.
Anyway, looks like you posted this at 11:58 am today. Doesn't your ward end at noon? Sweet that your church has wi-fi.
Crazy about you.
I'm crazy about you too.
I hate knowing that I could fix a story IF I JUST HAD TIME! We're all in that never-enough-time pickle with you; you do it more gracefully than the rest of us.
wow Erica you've had a lot on your mind! U need to calm down..... U should throw a suprise party 4 his b-day!!!
BTW, I want to view THE ONE AND ONLY 'Plummers Crack.' Will you invite me?
If I'm not careful, I could spend the entire day reading your old posts!
I'm glad I finally found you out.
It was great to see your family this weekend. Even though I'm an in-law, I totally look forward to those get-togethers.
Also, Stanton and I saw Ghost Town this weekend and I loved it. I, too, saw a lot of myself in his character. I suppose that's the point.
That list scares the crap out of me--it overlaps with the list in my head that I've been repressing. Love you, Erica.
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